I... was not completely satisfied that everything inside where I couldn't see it was just as God wanted it to be. I knew I had not done anything to displease my Lord, but I was also fairly certain that somehow He wanted something about me to be different than it was.

The decision... had been that he would not be allowed in services from now on. Nothing else had worked. He would not be silenced; he would not voluntarily keep his seat. He had felt obligated to speak of teachings that were condemned by the ministers.